Blog Update 3.1 p2

Hmm, quick checklist.

- Categorise all blog posts.  Done.
- Change the colour scheme.  Done.
- Change the widgets to ones more appropriate of my current social networking state.  Done.
- Space out the widgets.  Done. (By adding a text widget between each widget with the text “——————”)
- Make the Yearchievements page readable.  Done.
- Delete the About page.  Done.
- Work out what other pages are needed.  Pending.
- Create other pages.  Pending.

I think that’s all that’s left to do, working out pages and creating them.

Hmm, what pages are required though.. Clearly an About page, but I’d have to update it a bit more frequently.  The old About page still said I was 17 and my favourite pizza topping was pepperoni, quite clearly insane and out of date.

So basically, I hereby declare MINDEZ’S BLOG VERSION 3.1 to be officially OPEN iff (if and only if) you see an About page at the top.  If the About page isn’t there, then version 3.1 isn’t out yet.  It hardly seems worthwhile to make another blog post to announce that it’s open.  Tomorrow, COMP10042 revision notes.

In other news, the ant problem has been cleared up.  A bottle of RAID has seen to that.  Every possible entry and exit point is now shielded in a layer of poisonous material.  Mwahahahahahah.  I’m sure no crawling insects do anything at all for the environment anyway.  Of course there’s still the possibility of them getting in in other ways, attached to someone or something that comes safely into the room…. how could I get around that… some kind of airport style security at the door to ensure that no insects are being transported in?  I’ll have to look into the costs of that.

I sure hope none of this poisonous sprayed material in a confined poorly ventilated space has had any effects on me.

Splurgh.

Blog Update 3.1

Heads up.

I’m updating my blog. In colours, maybe layout, certainly how it feels and navigation. Generally make the place more purple. And finally make use of categories.

I didn’t really have much to say, so here’s a cute lolcat while you wait.

Everything you’re looking for lies behind the mask you wear

This is a blog post.

Hello world.

Drumroll

To blog, or not to blog: that is the question: Whether ’tis nobler in the mind to update the posts and comments of outrageous boredom.

As I say, I’m not sure. To blog and feel stifled by the.. feeling that people I know from home are reading it, or to drop everything and just be able to forge a new identity.

In fact, I would prefer the latter. I want to generally be more open about who/what I am and just be.. different. To a point that well, I want to be more naturally who I am, and contact with people from home will remind me that it’s not who I am. Or at least, who I’ve been.

This isn’t making much sense. Basically, I just don’t want to be tied down by what people think of me at the moment, and who I am at the moment.

In fact, I may as well come out with what I’m going to say because I know I’m not going to say it in any other way. I’ve been told by many people many times that I’ll know when the time’s right and blah blah it’ll just happen, but it never happened and I’m sure the last 3 days have been the right time to say it.

So here it comes. I’m gay. There. It’s out. Happy now? And yes it’s not a phase.

That feels better. I know my dad reads this, it’s just a matter of time now.

I’m going to sleep.

Housekeeping

Just a few regular housekeeping activities since the blog’s been recently brought to my attention. Added TSR to the Forums list on the left, and all the webcomics I’m currently reading to the Webcomics list.

Quick life update; in 10 days I’m moving to Manchester, Oak House in Fallowfield. Flat 49, Beech Court. A flat that will go down in history as being the greatest ever flat in the history of flats ever. Probably. Maybe. Well, possibly. Well, okay, maybe not. Yeah, no. Just.. no.

There I will be studying Computer Science at the university of manchester. And possibly having fun, I don’t know.

Either way, I don’t think I’ll be updating this blog. As part of going to university, I want to.. be different. Be a bit more who I am, let myself out more. And this blog restricts me too much from that. Who knows, I might decide to update this blog anyway. I’m running wild, who knows what I’ll do next.

Almost done!

Yep, almost done.

Normality will be restored in 89…88…87…

Oh fine

“Update plzkthnx” – loupgarou

kk.

Drowning in the rectangles of Time

Must….

blog…

can’t…

no…..

time…..

too…..

much…..

work…

help……

must…

work out….

way of….

freezing…

time so…

I can…

do…

stuff.

Oh the changes

Too much has happened in my life since I last updated.

So much, in fact, that to blog about all of the changes would be unfair on the tiny changes, as they would be completely overshadowed by the big ones. I’m a fair person, and the thought of being unfair to the tiny changes makes me hurt inside. This has been the reason that I’ve not blogged for a while.

There is really no cure to this, and much as I hate being cruel, blogging about the big changes is the only way this blog will get updated. *sigh* I just want to, at this time, say sorry to the small changes for doing this, and hope they understand the position I’m in and the actions I’ve taken. I love every single one of you, but for the good of my blogging future, I have to leave you out. This doesn’t mean we still can’t be friends.

THURSDAY SEPTEMBER 20TH – 1313 HOURS – BOLTON SIXTH FORM COLLEGE

I am sat with Meet. He has convinced me to apply to Cambridge. Why not, after all, it’d be a laugh just to turn them down if they do accept me, not that I’m expecting them to. I pick up a seperate application for Cambridge. My UCAS application and Cambridge application need completing for next Friday.

THURSDAY SEPTEMBER 20TH – 2146 HOURS – HOME BASE

I am at home, looking at Cambridge colleges. *sigh* Another decision to make. Have I mentioned that I’m exceedingly bad at making choices? If certain physical theories are to be believed, there will be many more Mindez’s, all of which choose different colleges to go to, some of them will receive more opportunities than the others, some of them will be generally happier than the others. I don’t want to be one of the unhappy Mindez’s. I realise at this point that I’ve started taking Cambridge as a serious option – if I get accepted maybe I will go there.. I dunno any more. I still want to go to Manchester, but still.

THURSDAY SEPTEMBER 20TH – 2356 HOURS – HOME BASE

Still deciding on a college… Why is it so hard now? Just pick one, totally at random, if I don’t get in ah well, if I do get in HAH I’M NOT GOING ANYWAY. This is a silly decision.

SATURDAY SEPTEMBER 22ND – 1302 HOURS – VIRGIN ACTIVE

I am at the gym. I’ve been toying with the idea of going to a gym to lose weight recently.. maybe it’ll happen. I’m, at this point, extremely scared. Too much change. I am shown around the gym and join. I am now a member of a gym. *sigh* Months of pain are ahead.

SUNDAY SEPTEMBER 23RD – 1333 HOURS – VIRGIN ACTIVE

My first time at the gym to do exercise… And oh it’s horrible. 10 minutes on the bike, stretches, random torture-device-sounding-and-looking weight machines (“The Leg Press” – You can’t tell me that doesn’t sound like some kind of horrible medieval torture), things that make me hurt SO MUCH OH GOD I COULDN’T STAND UP FOR LIKE 10 MINUTES AFTER IT, then 10 minutes on the cross trainer after which I was sick and dizzy and had chest pains, and then there was supposed to be 10 minutes on treadmill. But my exercise was stopped by a fitness instructor. I went home and I was in PAIN. HORRIBLE MORTAL PAIN.

MONDAY SEPTEMBER 24TH – 1539 HOURS – BOLTON SIXTH FORM COLLEGE

I’m in Computing, at the end of it. The normal teacher isn’t in, some random cover teacher that doesn’t know anything about computing. We’re supposed to be getting on with project work, but.. well, we’ve not been told what to do next, and haven’t had feedback on our analysis so we can’t improve the analysis. Computing lessons are now my “work on website” lessons.

MONDAY SEPTEMBER 24TH – 15:56 HOURS – VIRGIN ACTIVE

Second time in the gym. My programme has been set for the next 4 weeks, 3 times a week of this:

- 5 minutes on the bike, warm up, level 4 resistance
- 15 reps of “chest press” (20kg), “lap pulldown” (25kg), “leg press” (30kg), “low row” (35kg)
- 5 minutes on the Cross-Trainer on the Fat Burn program
- 10 minutes on the treadmill at 5.5 mph

The things that caused me OH SO MUCH CHEST AND ABDOMINAL PAIN before has been taken out of the programme. Yay. So I go and do this 3 times a week for another 4 weeks, then my programme gets reviewed and.. made harder.

TUESDAY SEPTEMBER 25TH – 0817 HOURS – HOME BASE

OH GOD THE PAIN ALL MY MUSCLES ARE ON FIRE AND I CAN’T MOVE AND CAN’T GET UP HELP ME IF I GET UP THERE IS SO MUCH PAIN WAH I DON’T WANT TO MISS SCHOOL I’VE NOT MISSED SCHOOL IN OVER A YEAR OH GOD IF I MISS SCHOOL I’M GOING TO BE SO FAR BEHIND AND ARGH THE PAIN IT’S JUST SO BURNING OH GOD OH GOD MY MNUSCLES ARE ON FIRE.

TUESDAY SEPTEMBER 25TH – 1023 HOURS – HOME BASE

I manage to move. Ow. I have a random depressive burst of “I’m useless all my lessons are too hard oh there’s so much pressure on me now to get 4 As and I just can’t do it it’s all just so hard, I can’t get into Cambridge who’m I kidding there’s no point in applying it’s all so pointless I’m no good at ANYTHING.” I become an emokid for a couple of hours.

TUESDAY SEPTEMBER 25TH – 15:02 HOURS – BOLTON SIXTH FORM COLLEGE

I get in school. Well, I get in school for 14:00, having been promised an appointment with a student manager at this time to go over my university application. But she left. What is it about me, am I a giant people-repellent? Cue short-lived emo depressive burst. At 15:02 I go to Maths. My maths teacher is also my form tutor, so I tell her I’m no longer applying for Cambridge, as a result of the emo depressive burst I had in the morning. I now have a lot longer to complete my application. Maths is sooo boring. I finish all the questions before anyone else gets to question 3. Then I just have to sit there. Maths is far too easy to be a subject. Was it really this easy when I did it last? I’ve finished C3 (There are only really 3 chapters in C3. I did two of them last year in further maths, and have just finished the ridiculously easy one that we’ve done in class. I’m a bit of a problem student in Maths, she’s never had to cope with someone of my pace with Maths before, clearly.

WEDNESDAY SEPTEMBER 26TH – 0022 HOURS – HOME BASE

I decide to update my blog. First, I apologise to all the small changes that I’ve not had time to blog about. I’M SORRY SMALL CHANGES!

This concludes todays blog entry. Main aftereffects:

- I’ve joined a GYM
- I’m NOT applying for Cambridge.
- I’m working on a website, a virtual cards website where people explore a virtual world and play/collect cards online
- I’m useless at EVERYTHING in my life. Except Maths, which is far far too easy.
- Loup’s blog has MOVED to http://www.theriomorphous.co.uk/milk

Insomnia

Insomnia’s a funny old thing.  Sort of the anti-hyper.  Not wanting to particularly do anything, but not being able to sit and do nothing.

I want to sleep, but can’t lie still.

I want to work on my cards website, but I’m feeling that’s going nowhere, particularly with my aversion to CMSs and everyone telling me that without a CMS my site is DOOMED.

I want to blog, but I have nothing to blog about except the state of having nothing to blog about.

I want to eat, but I have nothing to eat.

I want to play Magic, but have nobody to play Magic with.

I want to do my homework, but… ah, whom I kidding, I don’t want to do my homework.

And yet my insomnia prevents me from doing all these things that I want to do, until it passes and I fall instantly unconcious.

Speaking of Magic, in fact, my losing streak is continuing.  I think it’s 8 weeks without a win now?  Still, I made a new deck.. again..  Hopefully better luck on Sunday.

I am now back at school.  I have two new teachers, and do not like either of them.

Does it say that I’m a boring person if I have absolutely nothing to blog about?  It’s been what,  11 days since the last update and I just have… nothing to say.  Nothing of any substance has happened in that time.  What is wrong with me?  Am I that boring of a person?  Loup can sum up 5 seconds of inactivity in a 50 page blog post, and I can’t even make 11 days last one?

I’ve been feeling extremely demotivated recently.  My cards site has stagnated into a stalemate from not having enough programming knowledge, I’m faling to retain any memory of schoolwork from one lesson to the next in every one of my subjects.. and I’m feeling strangely lovesick.

This is the end of this blog post.  Hopefully next time.. something will actually happen in my life.